Can anyone relate when I say that I recently had an experience that catapulted me back to my high school/college self? It was weird and shocking how quickly it happened, I felt almost like I had time-traveled. I thought, how can this be? I’m now a mom of (almost) three, I have a masters degree, I’ve been in ministry with my husband for 6 years, I’ve worked as a therapist for 7 years, I’m not that same girl!
Only… am I? How much do we change as we “grow up”, and how much of the change is actually just a mask, a coping skill we’ve picked up to hide vulnerability?
I know that in many ways, I have changed. My knowledge has increased, my walk with God has deepened, my ability to face life, to embrace life, has been sharpened and strengthened. I’ve had mountaintop experiences, and I have been humbled, knocked to my knees and forced to come face to face with my own flaws and weaknesses. That experience alone changes you.
I also hope that there are aspects of me and my personality that remain the same. My teenage/early 20’s self was cheerful, positive (possibly annoyingly so at times), excited about the future, highly emotional (possibly annoyingly so at times), and not afraid of new experiences and challenges. So in some ways, I very much want to be the same girl.
Regardless, I was not prepared for my Back to the Future moment. Can anyone relate?