Here is my current reading list:
Any guesses on which one gets more play time? 🙂
In case you can’t read the titles, they are Just Do Something, by Kevin DeYoung, Love Your God With All Your Mind, by J.P. Moreland, Suffering and the Sovereignty of God , by John Piper and Justin Taylor, and Gigi – God’s Little Princess, by Sheila Walsh.
3am is a difficult hour to be awake. I’ve heard this from many people, but until you experience it yourself, it’s hard to understand. At 3am, obstacles that seem insignificant during the day suddenly seem insurmountable. Solutions to problems that you’ve previously come up with seem ridiculous, and decisions you’ve made seem faulty.
It’s also one of Eli’s favorite time to eat.
Philip is usually the one to get up with him in the night, but on the nights when I convince him to let me do it, I often find myself back in bed, unable to quiet my mind.
If Satan prowls around like a roaring lion, he certainly sneaks in quietly at 3am, whispering lies in my ear. These lies echo that long ago lie in the Garden of Eden, that lie that comes down to this: God cannot be trusted.
Once I realize what Satan is doing, I try to fight back. I call on all my strength and all my knowledge to defeat him. We battle for awhile, and sometimes he even lets me think I’m winning, only to crush me in the end. And then I realize once again, that I can’t win, I can’t defeat him. I’ve never been able to, I never will be able to. I have to rely entirely, completely on God. And the best weapon that I have against Satan during these battles is Scripture (which is one more reason to commit to memorizing Scripture!).
And so I call on the promises that God has made to me in the Bible. I call on the verses that remind me that God never lies, that He cannot lie (Titus 1:2, Hebrews 6:8), and finally I call on the peace that passes understanding to guard my heart and my mind in Christ (Philippians 4:7), and I slip back into blissful sleep.
At least until a little 3 year old girl pops in my room at 5am, asking if we can go shopping, but that’s another story. 🙂
