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3am and All Shall Be Well

3am is a difficult hour to be awake. I’ve heard this from many people, but until you experience it yourself, it’s hard to understand. At 3am, obstacles that seem insignificant during the day suddenly seem insurmountable. Solutions to problems that you’ve previously come up with seem ridiculous, and decisions you’ve made seem faulty.

It’s also one of Eli’s favorite time to eat.

Philip is usually the one to get up with him in the night, but on the nights when I convince him to let me do it, I often find myself back in bed, unable to quiet my mind.

If Satan prowls around like a roaring lion, he certainly sneaks in quietly at 3am, whispering lies in my ear. These lies echo that long ago lie in the Garden of Eden, that lie that comes down to this: God cannot be trusted.

Once I realize what Satan is doing, I try to fight back. I call on all my strength and all my knowledge to defeat him. We battle for awhile, and sometimes he even lets me think I’m winning, only to crush me in the end. And then I realize once again, that I can’t win, I can’t defeat him. I’ve never been able to, I never will be able to. I have to rely entirely, completely on God. And the best weapon that I have against Satan during these battles is Scripture (which is one more reason to commit to memorizing Scripture!).

And so I call on the promises that God has made to me in the Bible. I call on the verses that remind me that God never lies, that He cannot lie (Titus 1:2, Hebrews 6:8), and finally I call on the peace that passes understanding to guard my heart and my mind in Christ (Philippians 4:7), and I slip back into blissful sleep.

At least until a little 3 year old girl pops in my room at 5am, asking if we can go shopping, but that’s another story. 🙂

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Random Thoughts for the Day

1. I’m embarrassed by how many posts could start with, “As I was eating donuts and drinking Dr. Pepper, I was thinking about…”.

2. I am completely hooked on “The Big Bang Theory”. Especially while eating donuts and drinking Dr. Pepper.

3. I daily question whether I’ll be smart enough to keep up with Callie Grace while homeschooling her. During preschool.

4. Callie has asked me three times today to help her because she “made a huge mess”. She was not exaggerating.

5. I sometimes think that God intends for me to participate in foreign missions. And then I remember that when I see two ants in my house I’m certain the house is infested and I consider moving. I’m not cut out for roughing it.

6. Justus told me again today that he was vacuuming for Jesus.

7. Justus: Can I have a banana? Me: We don’t have any bananas. Justus: Why? Me: (the sound of crickets chirping). Justus: Can I have yogurt? Me: We don’t have any yogurt. Justus: Why? (You can see where this is going…)

8. Lately I’ve been spending all of my free time trying to organize myself so that I can have more free time.

9. I am so ready to decorate for Easter that it’s killing me to wait!

10. I love hearing my husband preach more than I can possibly express, and that I get to be under his teaching three times a week is doing phenomenal things for my walk with Christ.

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Sleep, Interrupted

Philip and I have been blessed to have two great sleepers in Callie and Justus. Not that I think it was all luck, we definitely established early routines and expectations that have helped, and Callie and Justus both go to bed easily and sleep through the night, getting up around 7ish. I know Eli’s arrival will blow this all apart for a while, especially since we will be moving Justus into Callie’s room to make space for the baby.

For now though, sleep routines have been great and easy, so when nights like last night come a long, it really messes with me, and reminds me how fortunate I am! Callie Grace had a hard time going to bed, due to Philip not getting home until hours after her bedtime. She really thrives on routine and both kids do better when both mom and dad are home to participate in the bedtime rituals. She finally went to sleep and I breathed a sigh of relief, thinking that at least she would sleep in this morning. Around 1am, I hear her get up, open her door, come into our room, and ask for daddy. Philip immediately gets up and gets her something to drink, and tucks her back into bed. 30 minutes later she’s up again, and Philip goes back to put her in bed and comfort her. She comes out an hour or so later and I take over, causing her great distress – “Is daddy ok?”. It takes a few minutes to comfort her, tell her that daddy is fine and that we will have snacks and watch Dora in the morning (both requested and really not appropriate for 3am). She asked that the door be left open, so I go back to bed for about 20 minutes, and hear her calling for me. I go back, and she asks me if daddy is going to get her a puppy dog, and tells me that she wants to name her puppy Chocolate Chip, and that she doesn’t want to go to bed. By this time it’s 4:30am, and I haven’t seen 4:30am with Callie Grace in probably two years!

As far as I could tell, nothing was wrong. I think she must have had a bad dream and it woke her up, then she wanted to see daddy, and then she was awake and ready to start her day. The funny thing was that by the time I was certain she was back to sleep, it was after 5am and I was awake with baby Eli doing his early morning gymnastics! It’s now almost 8am and Callie is still sleeping, however Justus is up and trying to get into Callie’s room to play with her. It has the potential to be a long day!

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Pregnancy Woes!

I’ve reached that weird stage of pregnancy where you don’t physically feel like doing much due to movements being awkward, ligament pain, etc., but at the same time feeling a great need to organize and clean my entire house, top to bottom. These two desires, to sit around and do as little as possible or to do as much as I can fit in, war with each other and often leave things looking half done, mostly because they are. Today I got crazy motivated and started cleaning out my kitchen cabinets, then felt tired, hot and uncomfortable and sat down with my glass of water (another story) and my pile of current books from the library, leaving my kitchen looking like Callie and Justus got a hold of it (which really is not a good example, because when I go to find them, they are cleaning their rooms, putting up their toys, and “dusting” with a container of wipes half gone!).

I’m at 32 weeks now, and have decided that I’m really done being pregnant. That being said, I pray that baby Eli waits to make an appearance until he’s good and ready, but feel that with the amount of food I’ve been eating (I think Philip has some concern about this, probably due to the number of trips he’s made recently to Taco Bell, and the number of grilled cheese sandwiches he’s had to make me at midnight!), Eli’s going to set some kind of record for birth weight. I’ve left that cute, 2nd trimester behind, and have entered the last weeks where I can’t sleep, wear Philip’s clothes instead of mine, and can no longer get Callie and Justus in and out of their car seats without serious issues, which aren’t pretty!

These last weeks will go by fast, this I know, and there are so many wonderful things going on in the Meade household that I hate to wish the time away, but we are ready to make eye-contact with Eli, and I’m ready to get back to my Dr. Pepper diet! (Tomorrow’s story).

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Pregnancy joys

After having two babies and experiencing two pregnancies, I thought I had this pregnancy thing down. So, not so much. Here are a few things I’ve learned in the last few weeks:

1. Throwing up has become such a common occurrence that neither Callie nor Justus find anything strange about it. In fact, Callie makes her baby doll throw up now, which is a little distressing…. 🙂

2. Kidney stones and infections are never any fun, but throw them into your first trimester and they become particularly nightmarish….

3. Playing the pregnancy card while at the emergency room is awesome!

4. Just because I know I’m crying due to my crazy hormones doesn’t seem to help my crazy hormones.

5. You cannot avoid smells. They are everywhere. Yesterday at Walmart they were selling Turkey Legs (?!) outside and I almost lost it.

6. The only thing that sounds even remotely good to eat is Chicken Quesadillas from Qdoba. How blessed am I that there is a Qdoba in Evergreen?

7. I’m convinced I need to buy a new baby swing for baby number three. Sorry Philip.

8. Philip has taken over cleaning, cooking (okay fine, he’s always been the cook), getting up with the kids, and changing diapers. Despite going through two pregnancies with me already, he’s still as patient, caring, and thoughtful as ever.

9. My children have never watched as much Dora, Diego, LeapFrog, and Barney as they have in the past few weeks. They think it’s awesome!

10. My memory has turned to mush. Not good. Did I pull up the sides of Justus’s crib? Did I call/email the people I needed to or did I just think about doing it? What do I need from the store? Seriously, I’m going to be an idiot by the time this baby is born. (Please no sarcastic comments, my crazy emotions can’t take it! :))

On a different note, I think Justus is left-handed, Callie Grace can count to twenty, Justus can entertain himself cleaning for hours, Callie knows how to get her way by telling you “That will make me feel better” after requesting something, and I’ve discovered the joys of the Knifty Knitter. So, life is very busy and fun and nauseating, and i wouldn’t change anything if I could. Well, maybe I would take away all the smells. :).

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Easter, laziness, and interventions

I officially decorated for Easter yesterday, and while I’m happy that Easter comes late this year, thus hopefully bringing good weather that befits pretty Easter dresses, it was difficult to wait so long to decorate. Last year Philip stated that he felt certain this was the Easter Bunny’s secret residence, and this year is no different, and I haven’t even made an Easter trip to Hobby Lobby yet!

I’m trying to immerse myself in this season, focusing on the death and resurrection of Christ. It’s sad and extremely revealing to me how easily I’m distracted, and how easily I come up with excuses for why I don’t follow through with my commitment to one hour of time spent with God. I even have a book that is broken up into forty days and has journal questions and ideas for prayers in each chapter! When I’m pregnant, I like to use pregnancy as an excuse for many things (I find it to be a handy excuse, and one that I think I’ve earned, considering all that comes along with pregnancy!), but I cannot use it for not coming to God daily, hourly, with my prayers, my praise and my devotion.

My dear friend Nita reminded me yesterday what an awesome responsibility we have to our children when we consider that their souls are eternal, meaning that a part of them will exist forever. Well, crap. That is a huge responsibility, and one that I’m certain God does not take lightly, so neither should I. I don’t mean to, of course, but I do, especially when looking after their eternal souls gets in the way of something I want to do. And this is just another reason why I have to run to God every day, every minute.

So what are you reading for Lent, or to prepare yourself for Easter?

On a different note, I had to give Justus a bottle with chocolate milk in it tonight, because I drank all of the milk. With my Oreos. I also ate an entire canister of Pringles. And I barely made it through my two hour bible study this morning at church because I was so hungry I thought I was was going to lose it. This does not bode well, since I’m only a few weeks along. And also because there are three other people in this house who need to eat! Nita made me dinner on Monday, and it was this special rice and chicken, and I sort of forced her to make it again for me last night. She made an extra large portion so I could have leftovers for a few meals. It’s all gone. It might already be time for someone to stage an intervention….

I hope everyone is happy and well and ready to enjoy their weekend!

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My top ten thoughts for the day

My top ten random thoughts for today:

1. Why does Dora the Explorer yell at me all the time? At first I didn’t take this personally, but now I’m beginning to, probably because…

2. My hormones are wack. (Do people say “wack” anymore?). I’ve only known that I’m pregnant for 3 days, and my emotions are all over the place. My hormones have also caused…

3. Terrible, terrible morning sickness. Well, really it can only be called morning sickness if my hormones are aware that it’s always morning somewhere, because I’ve been sick constantly for the last two days. It’s not been pretty. It’s never pretty when you throw up so much that it starts coming out of your nose. I know, I over-shared on that one, but it’s the truth.

4. Justus likes to participate in whatever activity I’m involved in, so this morning, as I’m leaning over the bathroom sink throwing up my pancakes, Justus pulled up his step-stool next to me and tried to throw up too. Precious or creepy, you decide.

5. Lent begins today, so I’m giving up soda, which works out quite well as far as timing goes, since I should give it up during pregnancy. I’m keeping my chai tea latte though. No one can take that away from me. Except for Starbucks. But that, I’m certain, would be considered an act of terrorism.

6. Philip takes everything in stride. A wife who can’t stop throwing up and who hasn’t slept in two days, a 1 year old who is teething, an incredible amount of work to do, a phone that doesn’t stop ringing, a 2 year old who attaches herself to daddy as soon as he walks in the door – none of these things phase him or frustrate him. He even made me the wonderful pancakes this morning, which were so sadly discarded shortly after consumption.

7. It’s vitally important to have close friends who love you enough to make you laugh in between being violently ill, and who aren’t afraid to say, “Dude, you look rough”. Just keeping it real. 🙂

8. My excitement over this pregnancy keeps me from being able to concentrate on anything else! Also, I do love having such a great excuse as for why I can’t remember the date, my phone number, the year Justus was born (I gave the doctor the wrong year), etc.

9. Philip just this week purchased something called a Roku, which allows us to have internet on our TV, which means I can now watch TV shows and movies from Netflix immediately on my TV. Seriously, the timing could not have been better, since there is still nothing good on TV at 3am.

10. Let the naming begin! I’ve already chosen a girl name, which Philip agreed to surprisingly fast, but a boy name – well, we all remember the Jedidiah fiasco.

There’s my top ten for the day. I’d be interested to hear Philip’s. Perhaps I’ll challenge him to it when he gets home. His blog is www.philipmeade.com.

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I’m pregnant!!!

Philip and I are (a little hysterically) excited to announce that a new baby Meade will make an appearance in roughly nine months!

We had just started talking about having another baby, and I’m beginning to think that, contrary to popular opinion, talking about having a baby is all it takes for us to get pregnant! (just kidding of course, but feel free to use this to scare your teenagers if you’d like too!).

In a way, I’m more excited about this pregnancy than my previous ones. I think this is because I look at Callie Grace and Justus and contemplate just how much I love and adore them, how they have blessed my life and filled our home with such laughter and joy, and the idea of adding to that seems like the greatest blessing God could bestow on me.

So I say, bring on the chocolate milk cravings, the insomnia, the leg cramps, the dreaming up of names, trying to explain what’s happening to Callie and Justus, the fantastic opportunity to always get in the front of the line during fellowship meals at church, and the additional love that has already filled my heart, even though I thought it was already full to bursting. 🙂

More to come on this of course, but for now, I must go eat. Again. For like the fourth time today. 🙂

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By the way, today is February 10, not 11.

I love my husband. I know that’s not news to anyone, and it’s quite normal for a wife to love her husband, but Philip is so incredibly special, there’s no work involved in loving him, living with him, sharing my life with him. So every year when his birthday roles around, I try to think of something special I can do to celebrate. The problem in the past few years has been that time rushes on me so quickly, I’ve got the two babies I’m trying to take care of, and this time of the year always seems inordinately busy, and this year has been no exception. I tried to plan an overnight trip last week, but due to extenuating circumstances, that didn’t happen. I tried to find time to get down the mountain to buy his birthday present, but due to scheduling conflicts and bad weather, that also hasn’t happened. So, irritated with myself at this point that I fear once again I won’t do his birthday justice, I decide to at least make sure we can go out to eat on his birthday. So I find a babysitter who’s willing to watch a one year old and a two year old (thanks Rhonda!), plan where we’re going, plan what to wear, and I have everything set for dinner tonight. Only one problem.

Today is not Philip’s birthday. My bad. I thought today was February 11. It’s not. It’s February 10. How could this happen, you ask? Actually, you would only ask that if you didn’t know me. If you do know me, you know exactly how this happened. Even with my excellent planner that I daily put into use, I still am off. At least I’m only off by a day, right?

Oh well. At least we’ll have a nice time tonight. The night before his birthday. Maybe I’ll make this a tradition. 🙂

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You Can take the Girl out of the South….

You know the saying, “You can take the girl out of the South, but you can’t take the South out of the girl”? I’m finding it to be so very true. It’s interesting how, when you’re in a certain culture, things seem so normal that in other cultures aren’t. So here is my list of things that make me still a Southern girl. Or maybe make me part of a huge, loving and crazy family. Either way, there’s no escaping it:

1. I put make-up on to go to the grocery store. I can’t help it. It’s in my blood.

2. I want my hair blonde. Not the natural kind that is so popular out here, I want the kind that is perfectly obvious it’s not my natural color.

3. I love having parties, and keep trying to come up with reasons to have people over to my house.

4. When I hear country music, I get all soft and mushy. Even though I don’t listen to country music.

5. When I hear the National Anthem, I get all soft and mushy too.

6. Few things are more important than making people feel completely comfortable in my home. Those few things will never include making people take their shoes off, or keeping kids out of any room because they might mess up the furniture. I’m not saying this is a good thing, or that you shouldn’t take care of your possessions. This is just my own thing, coming I think more from my family than my geography.

7. I’m still sold on the idea that most things can be solved over a cup of tea, hot or cold. But if it’s iced tea, it must be sweet. And if it’s sweet, it must have been made sweet from the beginning.

8. My one-year-old is running around like a madman, but still not wearing shoes. And my response? Oh well.

9. Yes sir, no sir, thank you, please, you’re welcome. All incredibly important words in my vocabulary, and therefore, in the vocabulary of my kids.

10. Church occurs three times a week: Sunday mornings, Sunday evenings, and Wednesday evenings. And Sunday school is not optional.

These are just a few, I’m sure there are many more. I’m also certain that a lot of these things are held dear in other places besides the south, but since I’m southern born and bred, it’s all I really know.

Am I missing any, my Southern girls that are also transplants?